Ramadan: Always in My Heart
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Ramadan
Ramadan Explorer
By
Sumayyah Meehan
Freelance Writer
It has been several years since I converted to Islam. And I have come a long
way since my first Ramadan, which was a disaster.
I had no idea what fasting was or what the spiritual requirements of the Holy
Month were.
Finding Islamic books in English was next to impossible and I was not even
connected to the Internet.
I made so many mistakes my very first Ramadan and I shudder when even
remembering it. I had absolutely no preparation.
My in-laws just assumed that I knew what to do and did not take into account
that I was a new revert to Islam and didn't know what to do.
I actually only found out that I had to fast, abstain from food and drink, the
night before Ramadan was to commence. This was a huge shock and I was more
than apprehensive.
To make a long story short, my first day was a mess. I thought I would die of
thirst and my belly was growling all day long. When it was time to actually
break the fast, I remember grabbing a huge pitcher of water and just chugging
away.
I was in misery and could not understand how I would get through an entire
month of this, and then I just happened to open up the local newspaper that
evening and see an article written by a man named Dr. Hamid.
He had written a massive article about what Ramadan was and what Muslims
should do throughout the fasting day. I was amazed that I finally had some
guidance and best of all it was in English. My second day went a whole lot
better than the first.
I owe a huge debt of gratitude to Dr. Hamid. This man was a regular
contributor to the newspaper for a few years. He taught me so much about
Islam. I actually filled 3 scrapbooks with almost all of his articles that
appeared in the paper. These scrapbooks were the only "books" I had. The only
books I could find, at the time, were all in Arabic.
One week I noticed his articles stopped appearing in the newspaper. I searched
in vain for months upon end but found nothing. Fortunately, I was hooked up to
the net by then and had a plethora of Islamic knowledge at my fingertips.
But I have always wondered what happened to Dr. Hamid. He was my teacher
without even knowing it. I have always wondered if perhaps he left Kuwait or
if he could have even died. I certainly hope not and I hope this article finds
that he is well.
I plan to save my scrapbooks and pass them on to my children. The newspaper
clippings are now yellow and the glue is loosening up, but the information
inside is invaluable.
Looking Back
In retrospect, I should have learned more about Islam before reverting. I took
the Shahadah with my heart thinking that the rest would fall into place right
after that, but it didn't.
I have traveled a long path to increase My iman and level of Islam. And I can
safely say that my relationship with Ramadan today is far better than it was
on our first encounter. I love Ramadan. Truly, it is in my heart. A time to
increase acts of worship and do things for the sake of Allah and humanity. An
occasion to deny physical needs like hunger and thirst in obedience to Allah.
Ramadan is like an irresistible breeze of faith. There is no other time in the
Islamic calendar like it where Muslims stay awake all night worshipping Allah
and begging for salvation.
It is also an extremely fun time of the year, waking up to eat sahur in the
middle of the night. I can always smell the scent of warm bread floating about
in the air and when I look out the window I find that everyone's homes are lit
up and bustling. My children don't mind being awakened in the middle of the
night either, they enjoy the hustle and the bustle of an early morning
breakfast!
Ramadan breezes in and out of our lives every year. It passes quickly. Just as
you welcome Ramadan with a hearty hello it is time to wave goodbye.
Don't miss a single second of this glorious Ramadan season. Live each day of
Ramadan to the fullest by engaging in acts of worship and acts that are
pleasing to Allah.
First published in October 2007.
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